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I think I might be depressed.

Sonofaratdog posted on June 16, 2011 22:55

When I was 9 years old my little brother Brian died. Saddest year of my life. I cried every night for almost a year and was on the verge of suicide. I had to go to Grief counseling in order to get over my saddness. There I was told that my brother was in Heaven with God. At the time that satisfied me. Now at age 17 I can think for myself. I've come to the conclusion that there is no God and that life is just one big pile of shit. If there was a God who loved all and hated none, then why didn't he save my brother? If one looks at all the horrible things happening in the world its easy to see why I have come to this conclusion. The only thing currently keeping me from suicide is that I don't want to put my family through the same saddness that we went through when Brian died. In summary: Life is shit not worth living.

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# GreenDee

Tuesday, November 08, 2011 3:55 PM

I wont say that I know how you feel but I will say that I can relate to how your feeling. My grandad died nearly 3 years ago and at that point then I began to despise God also. My grandad was to me a father. and thats what I lost that day. Just remember that your not alone x

# ereius

Thursday, November 10, 2011 8:06 AM

Th reality of life is that some times it sucks and sometimes it sucks less or more. For some people it might even not suck at all. If you want to get over your issues you have to face them. Start from the fact that God the ever watching loving father does not exist, it is a fiction imposed upon us by our for-Fathers, life is a complete circle, your brother died, so will your friends, your parents and so will the beggar in the street and the president in the white house. The stark truth is that we are alone. at night when you sleep you are alone with your thoughts even if someone is sleeping next to you. Accepting this reality might help you realize that it doesn't matter what you or dont, you have been given a finite amount of time, more than your brother was given use it as you will it matters little in the end.