It's been a long year . Been deployed for almost a year. Most soldiers have to fears . Not coming home and coming home. We are close to the end and it just gets harder. Now it;s to start worring about what's gonna happen at home . I worry non stop about them . Wondering if they miss me Wondering if they really want me back. He 's gotten so big ! I can't believe I've misssed more than half his life . My W is worried about his sister. The Dr sais she has stopped growing . W is more worried than me maybe I just miss them so much I want everthing to be OK. I worry about coming home what it will be like . Will she still love me did she ever love me . Can I find a job . Will we lose it all. I d find peace in rebuilding wih her but would she . Worst part is living in a tent with 16 dudes and having noone to talk to . I can't sleep but It;s ok cause I have gotten my 3 hours for the night. We are so close but so far.