the earth just seems to be spinning without me right now.
and when i watch everyone else whir round. meeting up ith their friends, going to work, going out at night, with their boyfriends, having fun and loving. I sit back and long for my day to come.

I feel hurt.
I feel betrayed.
I feel lost.
I feel destroyed.
Hopeless.
No future.

I feel so tired and out of energy all the time. Even the slightest tasks like making a coffee drain me. I don't want to do anything else except sit in my bedroom and stare at the wall. I can't sleep because the thought of waking up in the morning scares me. I dread every new day. I feel as if everyone is staring at me talking about me, joking about me. I feel awkward around everyone. My hopes and dreams for the future are lost as I know I will never be able to achieve them. I can't focus on any of my work. I don't want anyone to see me. I feel ugly and horrible. I think about if it would be better just to end this. but most of all, I'm scared. I'm just scared.